His Problem

"There's nothing there."  He doesn't put righteousness in his life.  He just expects people to catch on, my dad.

Problem

Why am -I- always wrong?  Why should I connect the dots to the order of events I did for that?

Well

I'm sorry it makes you mad what I do..or did?

Problem

Even if I knew, I was tired.  It seems rather silly.  What about if I was tired?  It's like leaving the dishes in the sink.  I woulda gotten up if I knew, but how'd I know?  Maybe, I wanted to find out.  As soon as possible.  What if I was tired and wanted to hide my past accounts with possible copyright infringements unanswered with old pix of me attached tho?  I supposed I'd'a gotten up..

Problem

They are looking at me like I'm bad as a daily basis.

Guess what..it's cuz YOU know MY race!

So

How was it bad of me?  I didn't know anyone cared.

Problem

You all are crazy trying to hurt me.  I feel like I'm being stared down for something that doesn't matter.

Also

It would be *** of me to care.  I was tired.  I wasn't aware.

Sick

Really, everyone shouldn't be mad.  I'm not doing anything wrong now, and you all think it doesn't matter what you do cuz it's easier.

Problem

Someone is mad at me on Twitter..  I just didn't cover my playlists once, and I guess everyone went and looked at it..  I was too tired, shouldn't be shocking but guess it was.  I've had to recover from things of that nature.

News..?

I did all the ironing and cleaned my whole room about.  I can dance and do some gymnastics in here.  I'm in the garage, but the opening is sealed.

Why, I Cared

I don't even remember why I cared.

Apology

If you know who I'm talking @, sorry if anything startled you, didn't mean it in that way.

Update

Skills on bottom side.

What I'm up To

I used to look up the people on Ellen but now I'm feeling down.  I Tweet them, used to read @ them all.  That's like 1 class, and I'm sick-ish.

Problem

Everyone is treating me racistly when I want to be praised for how white I am.  I just go for a walk and these people are all up attuned to me walking by all the time.

Mobile

may or may not post

Apology

I didn't mean everyone in every way.

I just wanted to say what I'm not willing to trade off.  I am spilling my thoughts out and feel watched so didn't say who and what.  I wasn't being mean, just using words of being upset|sad.  Why can't anyone get that?!  Who makes these silly rules?  Also, I got told so much I have schizo, so.  I'm not saying you're like that.. I just feel like this is a nightmare that has to stop.  Can't you see, everyone is so mean to me?!  I come on all nice, and then something weird happens.

Also

You all are silly and have a superiority complex that contains imperfection.  You have a 2nd life online.

Upset

I don't find the bits of sarcasm lying around amusing.  People find something wrong with me all the time.. they always find something that breaks the relationship.

Problem

You all have mental disorders cuz you're irrational and in my face.

Problem

I don't accept that you think I did something wrong that's bad.  I was just trying to fix something.  I'm not a weirdo and I'm no racist.  You are wrong and put down what I say and pretend something else is happening.

I don't like constantly trailing this triumph over me alas.

Problem

How will I make it in Hollywood, then?  These noises and my parents make me feel like I'm being shamed for something I didn't do.

Problem

People treat me like a problem.  The people in my house, my parents and the experimenters via cameras and mics..  All the time, sometimes, it seems.  They want to get a message across and it's constant irritating messages, a situation from which I would have to remove myself.

Always Sassing Back

Well..  Anyway, I was thinking about why my dad keeps doing stuff to get physically intrusive.  It seems as if it's to make it more comfortable for Ellen or she did it..  Like, he's done these things:

(1) affected my pooing and female cramps..
(2) affected how I pee in 2 ways
(3) stimulated my baby part
(4) when we were thinking about hair was like pointing or something @ his butt..

My dad and I are not animals that slobber over one another, and just because I find a boyfriend does not mean I get closer to him.  I do not want a boyfriend necessarily, f.y.i.  There are boys I have liked, but I wasn't about doing everything with them nor at that age having baby with anyone.

This never happened before and it only happens to me cuza my race.  That's why I think it is not beneficial.

Update

I added that my hair had highlights on the side section.

Update

I added that I had white heritage on the side bottom.

Dresses

I was thinking of getting the dresses, but it'll be a long month and so guess I will get the loungewear @ Wal-Mart, more exciting.  I don't even go out that much.

TV

I just finished watching "Those Who Kill" with Chloe Sevigny.  She just is really good as a detective, so caring and concerned, so outta this world like Ellen DeGeneres and like her too in so many ways..

...

I have lots of thoughts and feelings but find it hard to express.  It just reminds me of the idea with Tim Burton that life was just Peter Pan.  I think I really wanna go to Hollywood and go to premieres and see stars, but I like Florida best.  I mean, I don't think I'm necessarily too old but in some ways I feel thay way.  I just banked on other things!

New Plan

1

white
2

white
3

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last post

Gooses! Geeses!

I want them to lay golden eggs for Easter!

red - but blue is my size so getting blue
1

pink
2

3

+ a cardigan or so

Something Weird

If your 15-year-old daughter is forgetful or ignorant, you don't get mad at her.

New Video of ME!

link

Update

I cropped the other 1.

Update

I cropped a photo.

New Photos of Me

link

Mobile

may or may not post

Update

I had to edit the People part.

Doing Better

I can sing a hi C..

For some reason, my speaking|theater voice teacher went up to G.  My warmup is mostly harder things, like staccato and high notes with vibrato.  She helped me improve greatly, but I'm trying a new way to sing..  I don't know, I think she is not just a singer and wants to bring in the more non-musical aspect and even more about speaking than singing.

Finished

I got most of it organized.

Doing Stuff This Morning

rearranging furniture

I want..

I just want a nice place to live and money to see my parents.  I want to be passionate @ success, not just dependent of it.  That's why I live at home, no dorm.  Also, my dad is getting older.

if you don't hurry

i WON'T be excited

Change of Plan?

I guess I will switch to getting all the loungewear homewear.

link

Actress

link

Update

Old Pictures of Me

Triumphant

People don't want me to feel that way @ being good with kids.  They want me to feel submissive to them!

Shopping

I'm just buying the dress and cardigan..and wig.  Then some necessities here.

Update

myTunes page

Mobile

may or may not post

Ha ha

You don't know what an Irish is supposed to do.  I'm like 2% Irish as far as I know.  I'm a person like anyone, black or white.

Problem

Why am I being identified as Irish?  I'm being held on a leash.

Update

I added my waist on the side bottom.

Upodate

Updated the Order of People

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People Page

Edit

Eye Color on Side of Blog

Update

Now, you don't have to be on Facebook to see my album.

Updates

Info. on side + Pages

Mean Stuff

If these secret messages are from Ellen, I have to say that she does not know the rules.. I can tell she knows them but breaks them.  I mean, I forget, but like rehashing the stereotype of my dad when he's being private from her until no one in the world is interested in him?  I don't think that's what I was thinking of, but I also was thinking of that not to do with Ellen.. hope you understand what I typed.

I just want to know why she thinks she's in some fantasy land.  I hate to crack it, but people up north want an up north New Orleans some of them.  The South is still the South.

Also, I think my Gramma lashed out on him.  I don't like that I feel I don't have the right to safely visit her cuz she gets harsh around me in how she is..  I wanted him to visit his mom to have someone to look up to.  If I get famous, he could meet other famous people.  He doesn't always seem much of a help with that.  Or did my mom do it?  You think I like you all better??

Also, you shouldn't be mean to me like my dad says.  Lemme guess, you don't have certain things to offer..  You're just gonna ignore what I posted cuz I'm Chinese and act all like you don't know what I'm talking about or something just for fun, well fine.. fine.  It's probably your flaws that make you mean to me, and it comes out like my dad says.  Now, he is using flaws.  I don't believe in that, myself.You see though the other point of interest to you I guess.. is that he was staring

down a proper old lady for being nice to me.  He is so hateful.  He didn't want me to go up cuza money, but my aunt said she'd pay.  My Gramma moved away from there, and I wanted to see the cousins.. who all didn't seem to wanna talk to me..  '}:[  Sad.  I used to always complain @ this to my dad when I was like 12.  I just remembered.. more to life than meets the eye.  I didn't talk to all of them myself..

I am guessing his mom got upset.  He's been being more healthy.  I think it was not a good idea, maybe he thinks I'm still a kid.  I don't know @ now.  I had a dream once my mom came up to me and said dad's dead and I acted like I knew before she came.  He was still lashing out at me.  I feel I live in such trash.  I want a real, nice house.  I've always lived in run down areas.

You know older folk just talk, like Little Missy Precious Ellen.  ^LOL^  They just want things old-fashioned and proper and are selfish beasts who made brat kids born @ 1960 so we can't be cool like them nor are we the right age for them to be like our parents somehow you think.  That isn't true.  I don't know @ kids today cuza how bad school was.  We wanna be kids still, we didn't have childhoods molded to ^pleaseure^ like them!..  Like, if somethings seems different, they'll just get back at you for stuff.

So, @ Ellen I just wanna know @ her twisting the rules and hiding the fact all along she knew @ cultures and then acts like you think some way that hurts you and she's the only good 1.  It is a game, but if it's not true I have a right to say this.

Also, my dad should control that he eats well.  I think he has some.

I just want to know why Ellen sends secret mean messages and acts like the rules up north are not meant to be followed.  There is a courtesy that exists.  Don't just pass that up.  How did she break them, like secret messages, like something my parents said from her or the effect of watching her on TV and seeing her online.  She is just getting by, but she really thinks she got something special, those people in New Orleans..  I mean it's nice, but whenever I do some form of communicative activity with them I'm foreign.  I think it's cuz I am in Florida and am capable of being a Floridian.  I do not have ancestors here, so I don't know @ the best part of Florida.  The new part is nice, and it's a new family adventure.  Just problems going back up north.. it's really sneaky, too.

I wish I could figure out what Ellen is up to more.  I mean @ breaking rules that others have to follow in courtesies of where they are from.  I am not sure of an example right now.

You know

I'm the same as when I was 13.

Excuse

Well, I'm told over I'm a schizo.

I guess I wanted to say no I did not be mean on purpose, and I feel I'm told I am.  I am over it, but it's upsetting I'm like that.

Multi-Tasking

I've contacted more people @ recording their songs.  Don't think I'm going to college unless I am a rich actor|classical-crossover (like opera|musical theater + a few other treats perhaps.. people who dish out the same thing often) singer.  I will work, though, for money and something to get good at.

Update

Current Pictures of Me on the side

It's just a shame as in sad..

..sorry I twisted the meaning of a clear cut sentimented word..

Update

---liked the music when they come to see Santa

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More About Me

It can't be!

It's true people born in 1985 got more than born in 2005..

However, they want to give those kids, around 10 now, more of a chance over us.

Update

More About Me!

News

Chloe Sevigny

http://www.etcanada.com/style/photos/top_celebrity_looks_march_24.aspx#!47a01576fc3944101d967e1df9f94fa8

http://www.instyle.com/instyle/package/general/photos/0,,20051489_20048285_20071773,00.html

http://hq-celebrity.com/photos/chloe-sevigny-151246/2

Question

Did you just tell me to be a n*****?  You are condemning people who aren't white who look Jewish!  What @ thu injinz?  You encouranted people not to look like happy 1960s flower kids.

Someone else may have reminded me|pointedly put it in my head.

Twitter

Just don't listen to her.. I mean she doesn't ^say^ anything. She never overcomes the bumps to make life better aesthetically.
— Lolly Pop (@20Lolly14) March 29, 2014

1st, respect your elders..

About not making life aesthetic, I mean in her negativity, the way she now pulls people down, like me, is it worth it to see her smile-smirk?  She only had bad news today.  She is pretty physically.

What I mean is I just catch all these complex messages that say I'm bad and rat on me.  That's something that exists, I guess, and it isn't right.  She knows it's not right.  What does that mean?

Tweet

"People are attracted to you by what they see in you; they remain attracted to you by what you see in yourself."
— bella thorne (@bellathorne) March 29, 2014

I'm someone who doesn't make a fuss but changes her mind.  I'm also someone who was treated unfairly at the start.  My excuse is that everyone liked me, though I was unhappy and no one to talk to.

Bella may have just been attracted to the terms "in you" cuz she and Jackie Evancho got similar parents.. so did another set.. have really suave dads.

Official Ranking

1 - Chleo Sevigny
2 - Sarah Brightman
3 - Ellen DeGeneres
4 - me
5 - Tim Burton

Success!

If you watch the 1st trailer to "Those Who Kill" you see she is old enough to parent someone much younger..  Well, yes, it's ^better^ but I'm just not like that.

Don't worry.

I think Ellen has a real reason for not being on Twitter much during break.  I hope she has a good summer when it does come.  She sometimes doesn't Tweet important|big things.

but

LET IT GO LET IT GO THAT PERFECT GIRL..

Frozen

I bought it today.  The reason is to see the song but mainly just when she waltzes out rotating the top of her body!  It's the 1 true accurate point of interest!

Never Right

It's never right to tell someone they are shit.  They think kids like me with a parent born in 1950 is old and crusty.  We are only here to make others look good by looking bad.

Well

I guess I can get over it, but my dad made me upset @ the food.  My mom also is wearing glasses from an accident.  I was watching her show then, but you know.

Problem

I made it pretty far and coulda made it.  Instead, Ellen has to be all sneaky.  If she did that all the time, why would anyone care @ what she really means?  It's just an insult to me.  Who wastes their time in this treacherous world doing that?  Are you arguing she doesn't really have anything to do including this?

Problem

I just paid my Spring Break bar tab. I'm officially Spring Broke.
— Ellen DeGeneres (@TheEllenShow) March 28, 2014

Ellen is only posting once a day, now.  She keeps symbolically doing something all the time to hurt me.  She used to post a lot in the summer, maybe had enough.

Look at this message, though.  I forget why I didn't like it.

My dad acts like she told him not to eat at nice restaurants with me and now not even enough to get Taco Bell @ the mall.  So, she made me sick, and that's not okay.

Apology

So, someone keeps saying yes this person did this to you no they didn't - I DON'T CARE!  If the person is innocent for some reason, I am sorry.  I just want to ignore it!

Mobile

may or may not post

Loyola NO Cheerleaders

link

let's do it at church

it hits

Sometimes I run, sometimes I hide--

Sometimes, I don't know what will come to my mind.

..Sometimes, I don't trust you

Why I Don't Want a Baby

I don't want to leave ^my friends^ behind.  I realize I could still be a hit.  I would just know that my husband was not all whom I lust for-

New Pic

Problem

I'm getting to feel more that Ellen is really mean and not admitting it.  Someone ticked me off posting @ royal families.  She is being *** @ it.  Also, there is no Ellen, she makes me feel perverse.

Edit

I edited my race.

Problem

Some people are like *** stalking me with secret messages that make me feel but not think that I'm guilty.  They also have an annoying attitude and feel drunk up with being chosen over my well-being.  Pardon (if you don't like the term drunk, though I think some people don't mind, at all..)

Question

Do you have a wide face?  Did you ever feel it before like that?

Mad Mad Mad (jk)

I know for a fact I have problems from silly things I've done and since I've been online.  Otherwise, without this Charlie and the Chocolate Factory junk as in the bad side of the fans if you will ..

Suggestive

So, I used to whine, either to myself or parents and family, that I was the oldest, when I was still a kid, like 7.  I remember it.  The point I'm trying to make is that I have a love for kids.

Check out my baby pics.

http://20lolly14.blogspot.com/p/more-about-me.html

New Page

Buying These, Too

link 1

link 2

Question

Should ah bah this?

link

and the black cardigan

Actress

Chloe Sevigny

http://www.tristatehomepage.com/story/d/story/actress-chloe-sevigny-talks-about-new-show-on-ae/42142/a71AKW81XkSv2OfZ9BA3ig

http://sirktv.com/2014/03/03/those-who-kill/

http://origin-www.justjared.com/2014/03/26/chloe-sevigny-enjoys-under-the-skin-at-first-ace-hotel-theater-screening-in-25-years/

Edit

I edited my Germanic race.

Edit

I edited my Race to add the fractions.

New Post

at the bottom of About Me - Race

Update

Above is an About Me section.

Apology

I guess I'll apologize again for posting about something being impolite.  I just meant like sneaky.. not in a twisted way, just a factual way, like it was hurtful to me.

Stupid Things

Why put pressure on me for little things as mistakes?  Or things that aren't wrong that you think are?

What I Feel

When I see a real New Orleanian, meaning more real than me, I think it's very real!

Me, I think of Florida and New Orleans as the only regions I lived in.  I didn't experience completely traditional nor much old-fashioned at all Florida heritage, like rich people and people of the land.  It "was just a place to live in."

Sad

Guess we end our life here.

We have fun together.. I feel sorry for him.  He does get out somehow.

Don't Hate Him Totally

Why are you people nasty?

I'm worried..

..I felt at least that my dad was staring down someone once who was possibly even older than his mom.

Being an Actor - a Sacrifice for Money

It's not always the wisest decision to pack your bags and go to Hollywood|Broadway.

Problem

You have no right to get mad at someone like me and do something @ it.  It may be something that happened to me, it may be something that slipped my mind.  I have a hard life of people bothering me.  It just doesn't make sense to never say anything to me and to get mad like you knew me all along.

Apology

Sorry if you did not like that I titled a topic impolite.  Now, I am finding it "depressing.."

Apparently it was just a mistake.

Kids born @ 1985-1990 are not supposed to look overly Jewish-European.

Apology

I understand maybe I said things people didn't like, sorry, specific things..

Forever 21?

I found that people exactly @ 10 years younger even at my age 27 will still be having knock-about-fun and have the comeadery or parents's love from their parents.

My life is not content as ^2nd best^, yet I've been used.  You can argue people who are not mixed deserve more, and they do in ways, but I will stick up for other mixed people.  I know some are weird like in a nasty way, but they may some really be good or have good intentions.

Impolite

Renee Fleming stopped posting when I was upset @ something..  I was upset on the inside.  I posted on Twitter @ it.  I just forgot to watch her and it was like a big deal.  Shoulda been online, I felt, and I forgot sorta.

Problem

You all need to just stop punishing me.  I feel threatened by my stupidly strict secret message-y dad.  THREATENED.  What could he do?  My nail is already cutting in.  I need to leave and am trying to get famous, too, but it's money, and I wanna enjoy life.

Happy Thoughts

Sleep time.  :(  May have to get up and shower.  Maybe not.  I went for a jog/walk.

I was also

concerned @ my friends.

The Reason

I was dangerously bored, didn't think of getting a blog.  I was in that much pain, and you don't care that's why I went insane and did it.  What if you were trapped in a box like I felt, a big box.

Weird

Why didn't they say why they stopped answering all of a sudden?  Nothing too weird could have happened.  I liked forwarding my thoughts, and 1 friend said she liked it.  I am annoyed by secret messages that don't come to me as comments on my blog.

Why I Can Say This

Because it's my life, but also I forget there's another reason.  How insulting is it of them to not answer and say they are busy?

I Refuse

You can't all psych me out for something I kinda don't regret in a certain way.. who knows why.  You think I should be more inhibited as a person here, but that's not a big deal in that way.  I just sent like newsletters out.  Sometimes, people send 1 on Christmas.  I already apologized a lot.  I find it disgustingly rude no one answered, though.  Obviously, I wanted to talk.  Instead, you all talk about this.

Problem

There's nothing to talk about my friends for who didn't answer my e-mails.  I'm the 1 wasting time talking, too.

Today

I swam 1/2 - 1 hour.  I took a break for maybe 10 minutes and went to the bathroom once.

What It Feels Like

I'm getting the feeling I'm being treated like I'm a perverted kid or teen.

Also, if I get upset and accidentally knock something over, people get mad at me.

I just don't really take this sudden being treated like a bad, emotionally perverted kid!  I don't like being told I'm being talked to.

See, she is being mean to me for nothing!

The point is..?

Ellen likes to make me feel uncomfortable.  It's like having a .. oh I dunno.  I don't like when she says she means it in a bad way.  She just is there to be suggestive, but let's find out what she's really made of and moreso what she's doing.  You know, she made a joke @ not having a point as a broken pencil.  I do not sit around thinking @ 1 other person.  She is acting bossy.  It's making me uncomfortable.  People are all making fun of me.

Should I forget this?  I hardly have time to sing.  I think that medicine is making me sleep too much longer without really sleeping a whole night.

I dunno, I'm just sitting here looking at this.  She doesn't like Twitter, anymore.

Reruns

Ellen - Spring Break..

Leggins

When it's cold.

Going Along Young

They have these younger cousins, girls go on a sojourn of themselves, just sorta going along.  Ha ha ha.  Like, I care.. but the funny part is I dunno I forget.  Oh yes, at a young age they are introduced to certain things.  '}:]

I GOT A NU WAY TA WALK WALK WALK

I can get dresses like this and add a cardigan and boots and stockings!

Ugh!

Haven't had much of a dinner, just a peach.

Someone loves..

..babies

Is it me, too?

Wow!

That picture is so assimilated!

Let me guess.

You want me to wipe that up for you..

I see the secret.

It's so convenient..

A Picture on Facebook

It shows that it's best to be older but to be younger than someone's dad or mom.

Anyway, it's a nice thought.  I was put down and don't feel well, was deciding on if I should have Reeses and watch TV, "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."

E-Mail

Yes.  I have 1 credit from Valencia, an A, and a semester of unforgiven withdrawals, so all Fs though they must have been high Fs.

Do you know the nature of the music auditions that you send in by tape?  Can you mail in a YouTube link to a video?  I was a music major and wish to change my major instrument.  Do you know the nature of this?  I never auditioned for it, so I want to audition for it.  I am hesitant for you to forward this to the Assistant Dean of Music because he took me out of that instrument I took for a secondary instrument I guess for Music Education.  I didn't have to audition.  They pulled me out of Music Education and let me do Organ Performance.  However, it's been years and I've been singing and would like to re-audition as Voice.  I could still come there in the fall and take General Studies, though.  Thanks.  -Christina  Also, I was a ballet minor though the teacher wanted me in Ballet I even then.  I did some ballet since and am going to do jazz now, too, just so I learn more dance moves.

Ever been here..

It's nice to live in the nation's oldest continuing city.  I used to,  I was 9, 10, 11.  It was peaceful but full of life, you might say, tourists.  There was a bay near our house.  It had the big fort.  It was founded in 1565.  I loved the history there, and that was my focus, along with art and music.  No ballet.

Concerting

Why don't any other classical crossover or whatever singers have a bill of music everyone knows?

Weird

What do you think @ your parents turning around wanting you back under their emotional custoy?  I mean, you already lived with them and it's not like you don't enjoy them.

TV

The episode didn't record.

TV

I watched the wrong episode online?  Is it cancelled today for some reason?  So just catch up from today if it's not a rerun?  Gotta check the TV..

Problem

What don't you get about how it'd feel to be trapped in your home with nothing to do in your room but got a laptop and e-mail going?  If someone told me to blog, I would do it, but I forgot.

Problem

Do I love my friends that much?  What's in it for me?

Threat

You're criminal and have to pay.

Racism

I don't trust black people who don't accept my skin.

WHAT!

Why the *beep* would you condemn someone who makes mistakes most rarely than most?  Don't tell me your life is perfect, now.

What I Thought

I don't mean to mess with the new father, but Simon Cowell of Britain's Got Talent and maybe America .. might be connecting what Ellen said but don't want him to look silly.. not all silly tho.

Easy Street

Just notice people ARE NOT performers and see how attractive and ^basic^ they may look.. don't look stuipid cuz you think life's easy..

Giving in the Wrong Way

I was just telling my mom I'd put my son in gymnastics and then football.. like the kids on the Over the Rainbow finale performance are a whole lot though the competitors my age are only a few.

Faces

What do you think of people who profile a serious face, like teens and young adult girls.  I did it for that sorta bleached blonde English look, like no other reason.  It's probably from my dad's side.

Wig

Maybe this 1 in bright red: link.

Shopping

I'm getting this wig in the 1/2 reddish brown color: link.

Then, I can put up a picture!

OK

I showered and have my female thing.  Good thing I'm prepared.

Off to Cook

What I Found There

I found myself put up as shit and people are beckoning those without racial issues.  I guess jazz is something I need to take.  It will help with ballet, the spinning, and being specific and like letting it out as a form of ballet.. things I can't do yet.  It's a nice place that seems religious.

Nice Place to Take Dance

I wanna take Jazz on Saturday at I think a place that seems religious or something for some reason, but I don't remember a church by it.  I recorded myself dancing last time.

I miss the apartment

when I could just walk to the store late at night and go home and try to connect original dreams..

Well

I am so happy for Ellen and Sarah Brightman.  I like them both.

Test

Test

Making Others Happy

Before you turn me away, I thought maybe I brought up a good topic.  Maybe useless.  Anyway, Ellen would be happy if you all sat and behaved.  Online, people are pretty nice to her.  So, don't miss the boat~!  Happy sailing!

My Verdict

Ellen did what she did.  She already says that I'm okay as far as where I am now in life.  Even if she didn't, why'd I give a care?

Another Big Problem

Do you think Ellen is nasty how she feels you up but moreso that she just keeps shooting and won't shut up.. because she doesn't listen to you?

This is ligitimate because it touches on the *** life, how when I don't report what she does I feel like I'm m********ing.  She acts like she doesn't talk @ this stuff in any way.

Then, I am saying, she talks a whole lot, while other famous people are too quiet.  She's also mad at me.  I should find something else to talk about, now..

I sense another trick.

So, Ellen is not on Twitter much, now, and tipped the scale to Facebook.  Fine by me, but I know I'm gonna hear the retracted effect.  UGH!  Whatever does that mean.  I just was thinking she found her real #1, what a spoiled way that white people are..I grew up allowed to think I am white, but for some reason certain people just are squeamish like dipping their toes into the water.

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What I Can See

You might think someone not too old would feel more tickled, but if someone older isn't they mightn't in the very process.

My Accent

Whenever I think of my accent, I feel inhibited.

It's okay.

You don't need me racially.

ok..

ok.. SIXTEEN!  I'm SIXTEEN!  Alas!

So

Another reason not to sing is because you're over the age of 15?  I could sing well enough to perform at exactly 15.

What I Think

I bet you'd let some people ask about the satisfaction that comes to someone who forces the idea that someone ^doesn't deserve anything^ when others are spoiled rotten!

Sicko

I'm also from the New Orleans area, but I don't live in just 1 place, my whole life.

I guess in the end

you'd say both should keep some distance.

You'll find the same result.

I forgot to add - that it would be disgusting to enforce upon someone some idea they dislike.

I just watched something big bowl over.

If everyone else gets to revel in someone really cute or pretty for a time being - it's gross to tell me you ^found out^ something that doesn't matter and that when on "the best of the best" I'm to be on 2nd.  Never worked that way.  I'm just some kid sitting at a desk..

I think

I'm recovered.  I was wondering, it's rather sloppy and rude that my life is so .. I dunno I just felt overcome.

If..

..you wouldn't use the word dope for any group of people then sorry I don't think it'd be wise to take it off!  I don't know!

f.y.i.

This new mic ain't too hot.

Problem

Because I watch Ellen, everything I touches they pretend I broke.  I got a mic with a karaoke from an aunt, and it's not working.  She keeps digging into my family life.  My dad would annoyingly ask to play piano with me, and I didn't scream at him but didn't want him copying me the way he was.  Any dope would know that!

Making It Big

I didn't say my best friends didn't deserve to make it big.  They just didn't answer me.  I mean, sometimes, things come up, like you know what someone's really doing.  I'm a bit confused that no one talks to me much.  I think there are other likeable people in the world I followed and therefore became even more well-liked.

My 1 Wish

A 1 wish going online was that if someone wanted to tell me something it'd be in the form of words online.

Fair Judgement

If you give someone cruel and unusual punishment, does that make them better than everyone else?  ^What if they're black?^

Doot'n' Doo Doo

I already know.  People convinced themselves it was a creative thing to do, to punish me publicly and give some strangers some attention.

Weird Question

Howcome I keep seeing my old best friends who were mean to me popping up within what my life has become out in public like everyone knows like some story being used to replace my life?  Everyone is so giddy to say people in my life are better than me, but I - DON'T - CARE.  '8-|

Something Pointable

Did you ever think of how many people were capable of being child stars who never showed their face or could have been turned down?

Increases

Geeses lay Reeses

Funny

Gooses Geeses
I want them to lay golden eggs for Easter!

Funny

Both Ellen and Sarah Brightman are silly.

Problem

I don't want that rat Ellen ruining my relationship with others.  I am paranoid that someone posted something @ Mother's Day.

nor that she who called herself a turd Ginny

Goof Off

Wow, that wise crack or that cracker Ellen just keeps getting away with being a total goof-o online, then we see her on TV miming different personalities for the world to see.

I just reazlied this time why she did it.

Also, I think Karen Carpenter wouldn't have good kids.  It seems if you go off with the Carpenters you go way off.  She would knock them even from her own side into a stupor of respect and humbleness.

How do you explain

ugly kids that turn into ^beautiful adults^?

What's Going On

They are proceeding to say my kids are condemned for spamming nice things to my friends and family years ago without them answering initially neither.  They think ^my 1/2^ can be annoying to me.  I thought I had something going.

Also, where did I ever hurt anyone?  If I get upset you mutilate yourself.  How dare you think I need to be punished.  What the *beep* do you think I am?  Then you go blaming me.  Are you trying to just get attention?

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Now what?

Ellen thinks I was lazy cuz I didn't bake from scratch and not often at all as a kid.  It's just my genes and that I wasn't on a farm.  I was doing homework!  What is she talking @?  And why is she like never nice..  Yea, sometimes she does favors to impress people.  What about this ^hidden message^?

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I took out someone's name.

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Nell Burton

Maybe

He shouldn't be here in the summer nor ever.

I Worry

@ people getting in the business of my brother in an unprofessional way.

Question

What if I said to Ellen, "What do you think you have with someone else younger than you?"

I mean..

..people stare me down for my problems with race.

Problem

So, why did everybody start acting like shit?  They make fun at me that maybe Charlie and the Chocolate Factory was made for me cuz I was unavailable.  Think @ that.  I still want my chance at something.  I chose to pursue singing now.  Don't know if I'm too old and should try acting in action movies.  I'm a good talker and enunciator.

Problem

Ellen thinks I'm tacky and don't matter.. I bet she thinks she's got an overriding demeanor over me.  I cannot see her reading my blog.  Oh, I forget, I could before.  She's weird.  I already am over the fact of what she thinks of my cursing.  She thought I was a nerd.  1950, my dad was born.. so I have glasses.  I don't like her belief that everyone is shit in their will.  I think my will is DIFFERENT!

My Belief - True

I don't give a *beep* @ Ellens' precision.  I say if someone is being attacked to wit's end, if a thought slips so be it, that's the way anyone's brain works.

So..

Does Ellen think Cameron Diaz, et. all, are worth more than other people?  TV is a new discovery.  Then get yourself a TV where only select people can see, they'd love that, why not?  :|

I guess..

..they are just saying it to pin down their thoughts, but that's stupid Orlando in action.  What's wrong with the word stupid when something is really bad?

They came in and shit in my home.

Dealing With Worthlessness

My parents are just pervs to me, tossing me aside like it's a daily delicacy to torture me and then get mad when I get mad and think they could get hurt like me instead cuz I ain't something to be *beep* around ^like some ideal^ pretending that's actually how I like to and pretendint that's how I think.  So, naturally, in saying I could be treated that way.. why not her get hurt but could not think how that'd be okay.  I fear that Ellen will find out I did this and actually hurt my mom in some way that upsets me.  I don't wanna deal with her *beep* and all this made up *beep*

What It Is

Ellen promotes dorkiness.

Problem

My parents are making me mad, again.  More inconvenient bribes for my dad to hurt me.  I'm being bombarded about women younger than my mom acting like annoying brat babies around me rather than anyone at all for me to look up to like they were my comrade.  I know Ellen got bit by a bug.

The problem is they get upset for me thinking of curse words or bopping anyone, etc.

This wasn't this way before Tim Burton.  Like what's the big idea?

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To Proper Readers

I may come out as a nasty person.  I just am 1 of those who get it all out.

There's more.

You know what, even, Ellen.  You are like Johnny Depp convincing people that I ^did something^ to them.  Why do we have to bring that up?

Lots of people curse.  You certainly are allowed to bring it on.  You don't seem to care @ other people who curse @ other things, like if Miss Portia said "ass" or "shit!" for no reason.

Problem

I saw Ellen and she keeps popping in acting like she made someone change in a nasty way, but she didn't.  I like it.  She keeps saying she did it, though, to be mean to me.  If someone actually wanted to talk to me, they could.

Now, is there anything wrong with how I said it?  I hope I hit the all the high notes and got that outta the way of question!

It makes me sad how Ellen is acting coy @ how I cursed at the noises in my room.  They have to be from speakers planted all over the room or house.

Whoo o o

Who comes up and says you had your baby in the wrong year, as close as 1994 to 1998?

My Opinion

Some people aren't ready to go into public speaking and others not personal messages.  They should know their ideas are controversial and recognize the fear of public speaking.  People who don't speak to others in private as much should know about me and that they've simply missed the boat-

Apology

Sorry @ a time I was sassy.  I don't say those things.

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