Mean Stuff

If these secret messages are from Ellen, I have to say that she does not know the rules.. I can tell she knows them but breaks them.  I mean, I forget, but like rehashing the stereotype of my dad when he's being private from her until no one in the world is interested in him?  I don't think that's what I was thinking of, but I also was thinking of that not to do with Ellen.. hope you understand what I typed.

I just want to know why she thinks she's in some fantasy land.  I hate to crack it, but people up north want an up north New Orleans some of them.  The South is still the South.

Also, I think my Gramma lashed out on him.  I don't like that I feel I don't have the right to safely visit her cuz she gets harsh around me in how she is..  I wanted him to visit his mom to have someone to look up to.  If I get famous, he could meet other famous people.  He doesn't always seem much of a help with that.  Or did my mom do it?  You think I like you all better??

Also, you shouldn't be mean to me like my dad says.  Lemme guess, you don't have certain things to offer..  You're just gonna ignore what I posted cuz I'm Chinese and act all like you don't know what I'm talking about or something just for fun, well fine.. fine.  It's probably your flaws that make you mean to me, and it comes out like my dad says.  Now, he is using flaws.  I don't believe in that, myself.You see though the other point of interest to you I guess.. is that he was staring

down a proper old lady for being nice to me.  He is so hateful.  He didn't want me to go up cuza money, but my aunt said she'd pay.  My Gramma moved away from there, and I wanted to see the cousins.. who all didn't seem to wanna talk to me..  '}:[  Sad.  I used to always complain @ this to my dad when I was like 12.  I just remembered.. more to life than meets the eye.  I didn't talk to all of them myself..

I am guessing his mom got upset.  He's been being more healthy.  I think it was not a good idea, maybe he thinks I'm still a kid.  I don't know @ now.  I had a dream once my mom came up to me and said dad's dead and I acted like I knew before she came.  He was still lashing out at me.  I feel I live in such trash.  I want a real, nice house.  I've always lived in run down areas.

You know older folk just talk, like Little Missy Precious Ellen.  ^LOL^  They just want things old-fashioned and proper and are selfish beasts who made brat kids born @ 1960 so we can't be cool like them nor are we the right age for them to be like our parents somehow you think.  That isn't true.  I don't know @ kids today cuza how bad school was.  We wanna be kids still, we didn't have childhoods molded to ^pleaseure^ like them!..  Like, if somethings seems different, they'll just get back at you for stuff.

So, @ Ellen I just wanna know @ her twisting the rules and hiding the fact all along she knew @ cultures and then acts like you think some way that hurts you and she's the only good 1.  It is a game, but if it's not true I have a right to say this.

Also, my dad should control that he eats well.  I think he has some.

I just want to know why Ellen sends secret mean messages and acts like the rules up north are not meant to be followed.  There is a courtesy that exists.  Don't just pass that up.  How did she break them, like secret messages, like something my parents said from her or the effect of watching her on TV and seeing her online.  She is just getting by, but she really thinks she got something special, those people in New Orleans..  I mean it's nice, but whenever I do some form of communicative activity with them I'm foreign.  I think it's cuz I am in Florida and am capable of being a Floridian.  I do not have ancestors here, so I don't know @ the best part of Florida.  The new part is nice, and it's a new family adventure.  Just problems going back up north.. it's really sneaky, too.

I wish I could figure out what Ellen is up to more.  I mean @ breaking rules that others have to follow in courtesies of where they are from.  I am not sure of an example right now.