Apology

If you know who I'm talking @, sorry if anything startled you, didn't mean it in that way.

Update

Skills on bottom side.

What I'm up To

I used to look up the people on Ellen but now I'm feeling down.  I Tweet them, used to read @ them all.  That's like 1 class, and I'm sick-ish.

Problem

Everyone is treating me racistly when I want to be praised for how white I am.  I just go for a walk and these people are all up attuned to me walking by all the time.

Mobile

may or may not post

Apology

I didn't mean everyone in every way.

I just wanted to say what I'm not willing to trade off.  I am spilling my thoughts out and feel watched so didn't say who and what.  I wasn't being mean, just using words of being upset|sad.  Why can't anyone get that?!  Who makes these silly rules?  Also, I got told so much I have schizo, so.  I'm not saying you're like that.. I just feel like this is a nightmare that has to stop.  Can't you see, everyone is so mean to me?!  I come on all nice, and then something weird happens.

Also

You all are silly and have a superiority complex that contains imperfection.  You have a 2nd life online.

Upset

I don't find the bits of sarcasm lying around amusing.  People find something wrong with me all the time.. they always find something that breaks the relationship.

Problem

You all have mental disorders cuz you're irrational and in my face.

Problem

I don't accept that you think I did something wrong that's bad.  I was just trying to fix something.  I'm not a weirdo and I'm no racist.  You are wrong and put down what I say and pretend something else is happening.

I don't like constantly trailing this triumph over me alas.

Problem

How will I make it in Hollywood, then?  These noises and my parents make me feel like I'm being shamed for something I didn't do.

Problem

People treat me like a problem.  The people in my house, my parents and the experimenters via cameras and mics..  All the time, sometimes, it seems.  They want to get a message across and it's constant irritating messages, a situation from which I would have to remove myself.

Always Sassing Back

Well..  Anyway, I was thinking about why my dad keeps doing stuff to get physically intrusive.  It seems as if it's to make it more comfortable for Ellen or she did it..  Like, he's done these things:

(1) affected my pooing and female cramps..
(2) affected how I pee in 2 ways
(3) stimulated my baby part
(4) when we were thinking about hair was like pointing or something @ his butt..

My dad and I are not animals that slobber over one another, and just because I find a boyfriend does not mean I get closer to him.  I do not want a boyfriend necessarily, f.y.i.  There are boys I have liked, but I wasn't about doing everything with them nor at that age having baby with anyone.

This never happened before and it only happens to me cuza my race.  That's why I think it is not beneficial.

Update

I added that my hair had highlights on the side section.

Update

I added that I had white heritage on the side bottom.

Dresses

I was thinking of getting the dresses, but it'll be a long month and so guess I will get the loungewear @ Wal-Mart, more exciting.  I don't even go out that much.

TV

I just finished watching "Those Who Kill" with Chloe Sevigny.  She just is really good as a detective, so caring and concerned, so outta this world like Ellen DeGeneres and like her too in so many ways..

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I have lots of thoughts and feelings but find it hard to express.  It just reminds me of the idea with Tim Burton that life was just Peter Pan.  I think I really wanna go to Hollywood and go to premieres and see stars, but I like Florida best.  I mean, I don't think I'm necessarily too old but in some ways I feel thay way.  I just banked on other things!

New Plan

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Gooses! Geeses!

I want them to lay golden eggs for Easter!

red - but blue is my size so getting blue
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pink
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+ a cardigan or so