Monday, March 31, 2014
Sunday, March 30, 2014
Doing Better
I can sing a hi C..
For some reason, my speaking|theater voice teacher went up to G. My warmup is mostly harder things, like staccato and high notes with vibrato. She helped me improve greatly, but I'm trying a new way to sing.. I don't know, I think she is not just a singer and wants to bring in the more non-musical aspect and even more about speaking than singing.
For some reason, my speaking|theater voice teacher went up to G. My warmup is mostly harder things, like staccato and high notes with vibrato. She helped me improve greatly, but I'm trying a new way to sing.. I don't know, I think she is not just a singer and wants to bring in the more non-musical aspect and even more about speaking than singing.
I want..
I just want a nice place to live and money to see my parents. I want to be passionate @ success, not just dependent of it. That's why I live at home, no dorm. Also, my dad is getting older.
Triumphant
People don't want me to feel that way @ being good with kids. They want me to feel submissive to them!
Saturday, March 29, 2014
Ha ha
You don't know what an Irish is supposed to do. I'm like 2% Irish as far as I know. I'm a person like anyone, black or white.
Mean Stuff
If these secret messages are from Ellen, I have to say that she does not know the rules.. I can tell she knows them but breaks them. I mean, I forget, but like rehashing the stereotype of my dad when he's being private from her until no one in the world is interested in him? I don't think that's what I was thinking of, but I also was thinking of that not to do with Ellen.. hope you understand what I typed.
I just want to know why she thinks she's in some fantasy land. I hate to crack it, but people up north want an up north New Orleans some of them. The South is still the South.
Also, I think my Gramma lashed out on him. I don't like that I feel I don't have the right to safely visit her cuz she gets harsh around me in how she is.. I wanted him to visit his mom to have someone to look up to. If I get famous, he could meet other famous people. He doesn't always seem much of a help with that. Or did my mom do it? You think I like you all better??
Also, you shouldn't be mean to me like my dad says. Lemme guess, you don't have certain things to offer.. You're just gonna ignore what I posted cuz I'm Chinese and act all like you don't know what I'm talking about or something just for fun, well fine.. fine. It's probably your flaws that make you mean to me, and it comes out like my dad says. Now, he is using flaws. I don't believe in that, myself.You see though the other point of interest to you I guess.. is that he was staring
down a proper old lady for being nice to me. He is so hateful. He didn't want me to go up cuza money, but my aunt said she'd pay. My Gramma moved away from there, and I wanted to see the cousins.. who all didn't seem to wanna talk to me.. '}:[ Sad. I used to always complain @ this to my dad when I was like 12. I just remembered.. more to life than meets the eye. I didn't talk to all of them myself..
I am guessing his mom got upset. He's been being more healthy. I think it was not a good idea, maybe he thinks I'm still a kid. I don't know @ now. I had a dream once my mom came up to me and said dad's dead and I acted like I knew before she came. He was still lashing out at me. I feel I live in such trash. I want a real, nice house. I've always lived in run down areas.
You know older folk just talk, like Little Missy Precious Ellen. ^LOL^ They just want things old-fashioned and proper and are selfish beasts who made brat kids born @ 1960 so we can't be cool like them nor are we the right age for them to be like our parents somehow you think. That isn't true. I don't know @ kids today cuza how bad school was. We wanna be kids still, we didn't have childhoods molded to ^pleaseure^ like them!.. Like, if somethings seems different, they'll just get back at you for stuff.
So, @ Ellen I just wanna know @ her twisting the rules and hiding the fact all along she knew @ cultures and then acts like you think some way that hurts you and she's the only good 1. It is a game, but if it's not true I have a right to say this.
Also, my dad should control that he eats well. I think he has some.
I just want to know why Ellen sends secret mean messages and acts like the rules up north are not meant to be followed. There is a courtesy that exists. Don't just pass that up. How did she break them, like secret messages, like something my parents said from her or the effect of watching her on TV and seeing her online. She is just getting by, but she really thinks she got something special, those people in New Orleans.. I mean it's nice, but whenever I do some form of communicative activity with them I'm foreign. I think it's cuz I am in Florida and am capable of being a Floridian. I do not have ancestors here, so I don't know @ the best part of Florida. The new part is nice, and it's a new family adventure. Just problems going back up north.. it's really sneaky, too.
I wish I could figure out what Ellen is up to more. I mean @ breaking rules that others have to follow in courtesies of where they are from. I am not sure of an example right now.
I just want to know why she thinks she's in some fantasy land. I hate to crack it, but people up north want an up north New Orleans some of them. The South is still the South.
Also, I think my Gramma lashed out on him. I don't like that I feel I don't have the right to safely visit her cuz she gets harsh around me in how she is.. I wanted him to visit his mom to have someone to look up to. If I get famous, he could meet other famous people. He doesn't always seem much of a help with that. Or did my mom do it? You think I like you all better??
Also, you shouldn't be mean to me like my dad says. Lemme guess, you don't have certain things to offer.. You're just gonna ignore what I posted cuz I'm Chinese and act all like you don't know what I'm talking about or something just for fun, well fine.. fine. It's probably your flaws that make you mean to me, and it comes out like my dad says. Now, he is using flaws. I don't believe in that, myself.You see though the other point of interest to you I guess.. is that he was staring
down a proper old lady for being nice to me. He is so hateful. He didn't want me to go up cuza money, but my aunt said she'd pay. My Gramma moved away from there, and I wanted to see the cousins.. who all didn't seem to wanna talk to me.. '}:[ Sad. I used to always complain @ this to my dad when I was like 12. I just remembered.. more to life than meets the eye. I didn't talk to all of them myself..
I am guessing his mom got upset. He's been being more healthy. I think it was not a good idea, maybe he thinks I'm still a kid. I don't know @ now. I had a dream once my mom came up to me and said dad's dead and I acted like I knew before she came. He was still lashing out at me. I feel I live in such trash. I want a real, nice house. I've always lived in run down areas.
You know older folk just talk, like Little Missy Precious Ellen. ^LOL^ They just want things old-fashioned and proper and are selfish beasts who made brat kids born @ 1960 so we can't be cool like them nor are we the right age for them to be like our parents somehow you think. That isn't true. I don't know @ kids today cuza how bad school was. We wanna be kids still, we didn't have childhoods molded to ^pleaseure^ like them!.. Like, if somethings seems different, they'll just get back at you for stuff.
So, @ Ellen I just wanna know @ her twisting the rules and hiding the fact all along she knew @ cultures and then acts like you think some way that hurts you and she's the only good 1. It is a game, but if it's not true I have a right to say this.
Also, my dad should control that he eats well. I think he has some.
I just want to know why Ellen sends secret mean messages and acts like the rules up north are not meant to be followed. There is a courtesy that exists. Don't just pass that up. How did she break them, like secret messages, like something my parents said from her or the effect of watching her on TV and seeing her online. She is just getting by, but she really thinks she got something special, those people in New Orleans.. I mean it's nice, but whenever I do some form of communicative activity with them I'm foreign. I think it's cuz I am in Florida and am capable of being a Floridian. I do not have ancestors here, so I don't know @ the best part of Florida. The new part is nice, and it's a new family adventure. Just problems going back up north.. it's really sneaky, too.
I wish I could figure out what Ellen is up to more. I mean @ breaking rules that others have to follow in courtesies of where they are from. I am not sure of an example right now.
Excuse
Well, I'm told over I'm a schizo.
I guess I wanted to say no I did not be mean on purpose, and I feel I'm told I am. I am over it, but it's upsetting I'm like that.
I guess I wanted to say no I did not be mean on purpose, and I feel I'm told I am. I am over it, but it's upsetting I'm like that.
Multi-Tasking
I've contacted more people @ recording their songs. Don't think I'm going to college unless I am a rich actor|classical-crossover (like opera|musical theater + a few other treats perhaps.. people who dish out the same thing often) singer. I will work, though, for money and something to get good at.
It can't be!
It's true people born in 1985 got more than born in 2005..
However, they want to give those kids, around 10 now, more of a chance over us.
However, they want to give those kids, around 10 now, more of a chance over us.
Question
Did you just tell me to be a n*****? You are condemning people who aren't white who look Jewish! What @ thu injinz? You encouranted people not to look like happy 1960s flower kids.
Someone else may have reminded me|pointedly put it in my head.
Someone else may have reminded me|pointedly put it in my head.
Just don't listen to her.. I mean she doesn't ^say^ anything. She never overcomes the bumps to make life better aesthetically.
— Lolly Pop (@20Lolly14) March 29, 2014
1st, respect your elders..
About not making life aesthetic, I mean in her negativity, the way she now pulls people down, like me, is it worth it to see her smile-smirk? She only had bad news today. She is pretty physically.
What I mean is I just catch all these complex messages that say I'm bad and rat on me. That's something that exists, I guess, and it isn't right. She knows it's not right. What does that mean?
Tweet
"People are attracted to you by what they see in you; they remain attracted to you by what you see in yourself."
— bella thorne (@bellathorne) March 29, 2014
I'm someone who doesn't make a fuss but changes her mind. I'm also someone who was treated unfairly at the start. My excuse is that everyone liked me, though I was unhappy and no one to talk to.
Bella may have just been attracted to the terms "in you" cuz she and Jackie Evancho got similar parents.. so did another set.. have really suave dads.
Success!
If you watch the 1st trailer to "Those Who Kill" you see she is old enough to parent someone much younger.. Well, yes, it's ^better^ but I'm just not like that.
Friday, March 28, 2014
Don't worry.
I think Ellen has a real reason for not being on Twitter much during break. I hope she has a good summer when it does come. She sometimes doesn't Tweet important|big things.
Frozen
I bought it today. The reason is to see the song but mainly just when she waltzes out rotating the top of her body! It's the 1 true accurate point of interest!
Never Right
It's never right to tell someone they are shit. They think kids like me with a parent born in 1950 is old and crusty. We are only here to make others look good by looking bad.
Well
I guess I can get over it, but my dad made me upset @ the food. My mom also is wearing glasses from an accident. I was watching her show then, but you know.
Problem
I made it pretty far and coulda made it. Instead, Ellen has to be all sneaky. If she did that all the time, why would anyone care @ what she really means? It's just an insult to me. Who wastes their time in this treacherous world doing that? Are you arguing she doesn't really have anything to do including this?
Problem
I just paid my Spring Break bar tab. I'm officially Spring Broke.
— Ellen DeGeneres (@TheEllenShow) March 28, 2014
Ellen is only posting once a day, now. She keeps symbolically doing something all the time to hurt me. She used to post a lot in the summer, maybe had enough.
Look at this message, though. I forget why I didn't like it.
My dad acts like she told him not to eat at nice restaurants with me and now not even enough to get Taco Bell @ the mall. So, she made me sick, and that's not okay.
Apology
So, someone keeps saying yes this person did this to you no they didn't - I DON'T CARE! If the person is innocent for some reason, I am sorry. I just want to ignore it!
Sometimes I run, sometimes I hide--
Sometimes, I don't know what will come to my mind.
..Sometimes, I don't trust you
..Sometimes, I don't trust you
Why I Don't Want a Baby
I don't want to leave ^my friends^ behind. I realize I could still be a hit. I would just know that my husband was not all whom I lust for-
Problem
I'm getting to feel more that Ellen is really mean and not admitting it. Someone ticked me off posting @ royal families. She is being *** @ it. Also, there is no Ellen, she makes me feel perverse.
Problem
Some people are like *** stalking me with secret messages that make me feel but not think that I'm guilty. They also have an annoying attitude and feel drunk up with being chosen over my well-being. Pardon (if you don't like the term drunk, though I think some people don't mind, at all..)
Mad Mad Mad (jk)
I know for a fact I have problems from silly things I've done and since I've been online. Otherwise, without this Charlie and the Chocolate Factory junk as in the bad side of the fans if you will ..
Suggestive
So, I used to whine, either to myself or parents and family, that I was the oldest, when I was still a kid, like 7. I remember it. The point I'm trying to make is that I have a love for kids.
Actress
Chloe Sevigny
http://www.tristatehomepage.com/story/d/story/actress-chloe-sevigny-talks-about-new-show-on-ae/42142/a71AKW81XkSv2OfZ9BA3ig
http://sirktv.com/2014/03/03/those-who-kill/
http://origin-www.justjared.com/2014/03/26/chloe-sevigny-enjoys-under-the-skin-at-first-ace-hotel-theater-screening-in-25-years/
http://www.tristatehomepage.com/story/d/story/actress-chloe-sevigny-talks-about-new-show-on-ae/42142/a71AKW81XkSv2OfZ9BA3ig
http://sirktv.com/2014/03/03/those-who-kill/
http://origin-www.justjared.com/2014/03/26/chloe-sevigny-enjoys-under-the-skin-at-first-ace-hotel-theater-screening-in-25-years/
Apology
I guess I'll apologize again for posting about something being impolite. I just meant like sneaky.. not in a twisted way, just a factual way, like it was hurtful to me.
Stupid Things
Why put pressure on me for little things as mistakes? Or things that aren't wrong that you think are?
Thursday, March 27, 2014
What I Feel
When I see a real New Orleanian, meaning more real than me, I think it's very real!
Me, I think of Florida and New Orleans as the only regions I lived in. I didn't experience completely traditional nor much old-fashioned at all Florida heritage, like rich people and people of the land. It "was just a place to live in."
Me, I think of Florida and New Orleans as the only regions I lived in. I didn't experience completely traditional nor much old-fashioned at all Florida heritage, like rich people and people of the land. It "was just a place to live in."
Sad
Guess we end our life here.
We have fun together.. I feel sorry for him. He does get out somehow.
We have fun together.. I feel sorry for him. He does get out somehow.
I'm worried..
..I felt at least that my dad was staring down someone once who was possibly even older than his mom.
Being an Actor - a Sacrifice for Money
It's not always the wisest decision to pack your bags and go to Hollywood|Broadway.
Problem
You have no right to get mad at someone like me and do something @ it. It may be something that happened to me, it may be something that slipped my mind. I have a hard life of people bothering me. It just doesn't make sense to never say anything to me and to get mad like you knew me all along.
Apology
Sorry if you did not like that I titled a topic impolite. Now, I am finding it "depressing.."
Apparently it was just a mistake.
Kids born @ 1985-1990 are not supposed to look overly Jewish-European.
Forever 21?
I found that people exactly @ 10 years younger even at my age 27 will still be having knock-about-fun and have the comeadery or parents's love from their parents.
My life is not content as ^2nd best^, yet I've been used. You can argue people who are not mixed deserve more, and they do in ways, but I will stick up for other mixed people. I know some are weird like in a nasty way, but they may some really be good or have good intentions.
My life is not content as ^2nd best^, yet I've been used. You can argue people who are not mixed deserve more, and they do in ways, but I will stick up for other mixed people. I know some are weird like in a nasty way, but they may some really be good or have good intentions.
Impolite
Renee Fleming stopped posting when I was upset @ something.. I was upset on the inside. I posted on Twitter @ it. I just forgot to watch her and it was like a big deal. Shoulda been online, I felt, and I forgot sorta.
Problem
You all need to just stop punishing me. I feel threatened by my stupidly strict secret message-y dad. THREATENED. What could he do? My nail is already cutting in. I need to leave and am trying to get famous, too, but it's money, and I wanna enjoy life.
The Reason
I was dangerously bored, didn't think of getting a blog. I was in that much pain, and you don't care that's why I went insane and did it. What if you were trapped in a box like I felt, a big box.
Weird
Why didn't they say why they stopped answering all of a sudden? Nothing too weird could have happened. I liked forwarding my thoughts, and 1 friend said she liked it. I am annoyed by secret messages that don't come to me as comments on my blog.
Why I Can Say This
Because it's my life, but also I forget there's another reason. How insulting is it of them to not answer and say they are busy?
I Refuse
You can't all psych me out for something I kinda don't regret in a certain way.. who knows why. You think I should be more inhibited as a person here, but that's not a big deal in that way. I just sent like newsletters out. Sometimes, people send 1 on Christmas. I already apologized a lot. I find it disgustingly rude no one answered, though. Obviously, I wanted to talk. Instead, you all talk about this.
Problem
There's nothing to talk about my friends for who didn't answer my e-mails. I'm the 1 wasting time talking, too.
What It Feels Like
I'm getting the feeling I'm being treated like I'm a perverted kid or teen.
Also, if I get upset and accidentally knock something over, people get mad at me.
I just don't really take this sudden being treated like a bad, emotionally perverted kid! I don't like being told I'm being talked to.
See, she is being mean to me for nothing!
Also, if I get upset and accidentally knock something over, people get mad at me.
I just don't really take this sudden being treated like a bad, emotionally perverted kid! I don't like being told I'm being talked to.
See, she is being mean to me for nothing!
The point is..?
Ellen likes to make me feel uncomfortable. It's like having a .. oh I dunno. I don't like when she says she means it in a bad way. She just is there to be suggestive, but let's find out what she's really made of and moreso what she's doing. You know, she made a joke @ not having a point as a broken pencil. I do not sit around thinking @ 1 other person. She is acting bossy. It's making me uncomfortable. People are all making fun of me.
Should I forget this? I hardly have time to sing. I think that medicine is making me sleep too much longer without really sleeping a whole night.
I dunno, I'm just sitting here looking at this. She doesn't like Twitter, anymore.
Should I forget this? I hardly have time to sing. I think that medicine is making me sleep too much longer without really sleeping a whole night.
I dunno, I'm just sitting here looking at this. She doesn't like Twitter, anymore.
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